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  • October 17, 2018 at 11:03 pm #231635
    Justin
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    hello tinybuddha community, first off I’m really happy I stumbled on this website. Its just what ive needed. Anyways, I’m a 21 year old young man . lost story short ive had it rough since a kid with no parental guidance but I dont use it as a crutch, as I use my past as strength. When I was 17 I fell in love for the first (and only time) with the most perfect, indescribable girl ive ever met. Her name is gina and she was 16. I was at a very tough time and place in my life and she still managed too love me back. We dated and were together almost 4 years, she was there for me when I had nobody. Nothing. Well my life was a mess, and so was my emotions. I started treating her badly (no not physical), I was just a angry sad person. Well about 1 month ago she broke up with me . I’ve been too drug treatment, and now live in a clean and sober house, and I feel like I am a different person. I am who I’m SUPPOSED too be. I am not full of anger and hate like I was when I was younger. It kills me too know ive ruined a friendship/relationship with my true love because how I acted as a angry kid . also, I havent been very successful at not contacting her sadly. Its hard because i live in a new city, and dont really have anybody too talk to or turn too. If anyone could give me some advice or words of encouregment it would make my day. Thank you

    October 18, 2018 at 11:12 am #231723
    Anonymous
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    Dear Justin:

    Congratulations for being successful at the drug treatment. You wrote that you live in a new city and “don’t really have anybody to talk to or turn to”.

    Social support is very important to everyone, especially for a person having had a very difficult childhood and a drug addiction, being newly abstinent. Do you have such social support in the “clean and sober house” where you live? Or in any support group you attend?

    She broke up with you one month ago. Does she live in the same new city where you live and how often/ how have you contacted her after the break up/ what was her response?

    anita

    October 18, 2018 at 10:54 pm #231811
    Justin
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    Thank you for the reply ! Yeah i understand that. Ive been sober since December and have lived in this New city since January. In the clean and sober house. And no she doesnt live in this city. She lives about 45 minutes away. I don’t go to meeting anymore honestly, and I do have social support in the house but also everybody kind of does there own thing. She says she’s still in love with me, and will always love me. She would always reply too messages and answer my calls. Honestly, sends alot of mixed signals. Ive realized that me trying too talk too her all day everyday wont make anything better and will surely just make me look desperate. So this is day 2 of not reaching out too her . I’m hoping either it will let me heal, or let her realize people do change and grow up .

    But yes, socialization is a big thing that I need, I guess I have problems opening up too people

    October 19, 2018 at 6:32 am #231861
    Anonymous
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    Dear Justin:

    You are welcome. You’ve been sober since December 2017, lived in the sober house since January 2018. She broke up with you a month ago, that is September this year. She broke up with you because you treated her badly. “I was just an angry sad person”.

    This means that she didn’t break up with you because of your drinking but because you treated her badly while being sober.

    This is my suggestion: she needs to see that you manage your anger well, that you are in reasonable control of your behavior. Not contacting her frequently is one way that she can see that you are in control. She needs to see that although you need her, you can manage to not call her.

    If you told her later: I didn’t call you because I didn’t need to- that wouldn’t show her that you can control your behavior. But if she knows that you needed to call her and you didn’t, that will be evidence of your self control.

    If you resume communicating and you do feel anger (and you will), she needs to see that you are indeed angry and that you behave differently when angry than you did before.

    If you pretend to never feel angry again- even if it was possible- that wouldn’t show her that you can control your behavior. But if she sees that you are angry and in control, that will be the evidence that she needs.

    Does this make sense to you?

    anita

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