Kkasxo,

its not fair is it? Has your pain changed in the past few weeks? I get the sense it’s not so much about reconciling with your ex now and is something deeper now? Or maybe I have it wrong.

Did you chase up your counselling request?

In one way I’m glad of the reprieve from the excrutiating pain that the medication is giving me but in another way, it’s funny how the heart doesn’t want to move on. The heart wants to nearly cling to the pain because in doing so, im clinging to the relationship with my ex. Even now, I call him my ex but I don’t really feel that.

I hope today is better for you. Work might distract you and maybe force yourself to go to the gym. It won’t make you feel worse. x