Kkasxo,

Im glad you had a reprieve last evening and were able to keep distracted.

I managed to get a 4K walk in which I felt good about. However, I’m feeling quite low again this morning. He texted me last night, just to thank me for a sympathy card I sent his parents for his grandma who passed away.

After my phonecall that weekend, I was devastated he hadn’t told me about the death, when we had only just split up. He hadn’t told family we split at the time of the funeral, so it just looked like I didn’t make an effort to attend.

Anyway, I really adored his parents and so just a card after the phonecall. I was not expecting to hear from him. He basically just said thanks and it was appreciated.

It didn’t change anything and I guess I nearly wish he had left it and not said anything because I’m doing my best to survive but when there is any contact and betraying little flame lights again.

Im off today, to attend the dentist. THESE are the lengths I am now doing to for the sake of distraction…..THE DENTIST!!!! My life is tragic!

How are you doing today? Did you go to work?