Kkasxo,

You’re right, anger is part of the process and everyone, including my therapist, has been coaxing me to be pissed off at him. I literally have no anger at all. I can’t even muster up fake anger, I try but to no avail. My therapist feels I’m not ready to be angry with him, because I’m not ready to let go. It’s harder to ‘reconcile’ with someone you have seething anger towards!

Unfortunately there is not route for him to get to HQ apart from my way, but as I said, it’s once in a blue moon he’s there and while we were going out, I never once accidentally bumped into him so I can’t see it happening again. We live about 40 minutes drive away from each other. I have no reason to ever be in his neck of the woods, although there was a really good salon there I used to visit, but I’ll just have to find a new one.

I also believe you’re right and I’m sure he was just as startled as me to be honest. It is what it is I suppose. How on earth do I stop loving him and want to move on for myself and stop dreaming about a fantastical reconciliation?!

I actually have no plans for this evening, but I’m exhausted from not sleeping much last night so I’m thinking of doing some more cleaning and maybe try out Netflix…..eek!

Are you going to your sisters party tonight?