Dear   Ben:

I didn’t understand what happened the day  before yesterday in therapy, did she suggest a visualization after you told her  during the earlier session that you disliked visualization exercises? If so, she was inattentive to you and made a big mistake. To find  a good therapist may be as difficult as finding a  good partner in life.. almost. Many are simply not attentive enough, don’t  care enough, are  not skillful, are distracted etc.

If she is not a good therapist, better not see her again.

You wrote: “I can’t just be here, in my room  (alone as  usual)… I want  to meet  people but only because  I crave attention again not because I want   to  meet  new people”-

my input: it is natural to crave attention and  to want  to meet old.. and new  people. We are social animals, it  is natural, no man is an island. I hope you don’t feel badly about being human. I suggested to you in my last post to focus on work/ career, but true, the social need has to be satisfied somewhat. So why not meet new people, but on your terms. Not compromising your values for that purpose?

anita