Hi Anita,

Thanks for making few things clear. ‘focusing on the source of danger’, this statement was spot on. This is the exact emotion I feel. When someone deliberately says something negative about me, I immediately sense that person is dangerous to me and find ways to stay away from that person. This sometime leads to irrational fear of getting hurt, if that person is too intimidating.

Unfortunately, I am still livng with my parents. My professional story goes like this- I recently quit my IT job as it was extremely stressful. The working evironment was toxic and the actual work also did not give me enjoyment. Most of all my health was deteriorating. So, its kind of hard to move out now without any income. I was actually all prepared for going abroad for doing MS, but then I questioned myself whether I really want to work in a corporate environment anymore, and the answer was No. I didn’t even have any passion or liking towards the field which I had chosen to study. I later realized that I had an inclination to music and plants. I searched for universities offering courses in these two fields and the type of job which I had to do once I finished studies. I am still searching for something which will be suitable to me both financially and personally. The reason I am trying to move abroad is to stay away from my family and the society. I am in desparate need of freedom and peace of mind. I have been burnt out both professionally and personally.

So, it is possible for me to move away from them, but not in the next 6 months. Also, I am really grateful to you for listening to my story patiently all the while. This is my first time I am sharing all my personal feelings bottling inside me to someone and I feel very safe emotionally. Thankyou so much! 🙂