Actually I wanna ask 1 final thing. From what I have said over the past few years, what does it seem like is happening between the 2 of us? does it seem like she may see me as MORE then just a friend but waiting for me to say something? maybe in the past she saw me as something more? I mean that last phone call at the end when I let her know she can call me whenever she wants  and her voice changed to much lower and she said any time I am thinking about her I should call her and we didn’t wanna get off the phone right away. Maybe it’s all in my head and she’s just this friendly, but sometimes I think there may be more and it drives me nuts thinking about it. Maybe we are both afraid of letting eachother in more and that’s why we don’t hang out as often as we both would like? Someone once told me that we don’t have a friendship, it’s just 2 people who text/call eachother who are afraid of interacting on a more personal level due to not wanting to be rejected or something. I really don’t wanna say something then she takes off without saying anything to me anymore.

Btw I am going for my massage next Monday, she said “Would be lovely to have you in”, then I will let her know I will call after Xmas, although if she texts me on Xmas she loves the gift I’ll ask if she wants to have a quick 5 min talk if she’s not busy, then call her a few days after.

Funny…as I write this I am editing it. She accidentally called me, we talked for 21 minutes. Told her it’s always good talking to you and hope your finger accidentally hits my number again so told her I’ll call her after xmas and we can tell each other what Santa got us. Also she does not go to laundry mat for her laundry, she does it at home.