Dear Freeman:

You are welcome. Reads to me that the very specific activity with men, the one that started that time in middle school, is very enjoyable for you, an intense stimulation, and it is not a part of a bigger experience  with men. It is just that one act. And going to the adult book store parking lot is where that act is available, free  of charge. Do I understand correctly?

And then, you have this hunger for sex, is this hunger connected to another type of hunger in earlier childhood, do you think, such as hunger for attention, to be seen and noticed?

anita