Kkasxo,

I think I’m still not learning, whatever it is I’m supposed to be learning. Aren’t all these heart traumas supposed to make us ‘find ourselves’ and become better people in the world? Well I don’t feel I’m doing well in that sense. I feel that I’m exactly where I was when we split. I still love him. I still miss him. I still consider just being with him and asking for nothing more. So I wonder if this will change? You are ABOLUTELY right when you say I’m the only one who can make me happy. But I genuinely have zero clue how to do that.

As for your situation, trust me I had so much anxiety when I got back with my ex and we had a bereavement and my family needed to know we reunited because of the funeral etc, I told the easier members of my family first but dreaded telling my sister. She had been the most one to pick up the pieces and hated him for what he hurting me. I got my brother to tell her and while she was perfectly nice to my ex, I knew it would be a long while before she would accept him. But she did. Time passes and you see your family member heal and be happier and it fades and you get on with things.

Its conpletely understandable that your Dad is upset, had your Mum already known? My Dad would be the same. It’s also a shock for him. So let it sink in. Don’t draw too much attention to it as such, let it just bed in naturally and time will pass and it won’t be so raw for everyone. This has been my experience anyway. I also had the element of would my family be disappointed in me for returning to him, but that worry eventually subsides too.

I can imagine, you’re dying to get away from everything. I’m not looking forward to Xmas, however, my sis and husband and baby are coming home to us for dinner on Xmas day so I’ll be cooking for 6 people which I’m looking forward to. Then my other sister and her family and my other brother will arrive on Boxing Day so it’ll be a bustling house!

Im taking my sister on a Babymoon to a luxury hotel in Jan as she’s due in Feb, so I’m kind of living for that right now!