I am trying to live intentionally but I keep going up and down with my emotions. One day I am confident that I got it and the next few days I am down and out and then I have to start over. I am definitely learning to admit that I have been defeated. I have been trying to change my mother and brother for years. I am learning that I cannot change someone who doesn’t want to change. It is hard for me to accept because I find it hard to go live a life that I want on my own with my family behind me. I want us all to better ourselves. It is like I am the only one in my family to see that it is dysfunctional. I am making progress but had some slip ups with my codependency. My brother is in a new relationship and I seen him acting very co dependently so I of course became consumed and offered unwanted advice. He was bringing her and her kids over every weekend and I felt it was disrespectful to my father and I as we are also roommates in this apartment. I brang it to his attention and we had tension for a while. I am trying to forgive myself for acting so co dependently regarding his relationship because I was doing so well and I have been putting up boundaries with everyone. He has apologized for not considering how I felt about having company every weekend and now I feel bad. I am trying to stick to my boundaries but I then start feeling bad about them with my family. I am planning to move to my aunts house on the first. I am scared to make this move. I have also become attached to living with my brother these last 5 months and I am afraid I will have regret but I know this is what we need. I also am afraid that my aunt is so highly codependent and judgmental and I fear she will rub off on me as she sometimes does. I can afford to live on my own with my 5000 saved but I want to continue to save so I can put down on an investment so I can start securing myself. I am confused with some of these decisions and fear that I will become emotional with more changes. I have broke up with the man I loved, moved states, had to live in a tiny apartment with father and brother, my mother passed away, I recently started putting boundaries with my older brother and haven’t talked to him much, and now another move. Things are so confusing and scary in my life. I just want to know I am doing the right thing.