Dear noname:

I am typing your sentences not in order, and I am removing most of your interpretations:

“I became depressed upon arriving at my  sister’s house  last  week. Just being in my dad’s presence makes me anxious and angry, when I look at him I see all of the pain he’s caused me and my family yet I have to swallow that feeling… there’s no room for me and my feelings with my dad just his. I’ve been resenting him more  and more. I have  to edit everything and don’t get to be real  because my  mom is always around and in everybody’s business

I’m much happier alone and away from their never ending demands and  favor asking. I help them out of shame. I very  much pity both of  my  parents“-

A  comment: you are not helping your sister by  taking care of your father (“I did not want to  take care of him at all but again I d id it  to help my  sister out”). What will help her would  be for you to not take care of your father, or your mother, so to discourage her from waiting on your parents to change (“me  and  my sister are still waiting on our parents… she’s still waiting  on my dad to change”).

Second comment is a question for you regarding what I italicized above: do you pity your parents for  having you as a son, is this part of your shame?

anita