Dear anita,
I don’t want to date any men, I already said it. And usually I don’t meet men. That I met K. was just by accident, you don’t have to worry. Usually I don’t start a conversation with men. When men approach me on the street, I usually ignore them or don’t talk to them.
Only because I met him at home and I knew his sister, I thought that everything was going to be o.K. I didn’t realize, that I am not ready for a relationship, but now I do. I don’t want to hurt anyone or drag a man into my problems. Those are strong reasons for me to really not date anyone.
Right now I can only feel that that this inner critic is right. Maybe when I was an innocent child it wasn’t right, but now it is. A person that is not disgusting wouldn’t do such a thing. It would be the best, if I just didn’t exist!
Though I run this site, it is not mine. It's ours. It's not about me. It's about us. Your stories and your wisdom are just as meaningful as mine. 