Anita:

How did you possibly remember what I had written here more than 5 years ago?!?! 🙂 I remember now. Wow, think you could link me to that thread? Wow, some common patterns here…I do have to say, I’m not the same person I was back then. My relationship with my father has not yet been resolved (and probably won’t until I am able to gain more literal space from him), but those things don’t bother me anymore? Those thoughts don’t haunt me. However, conditioning runs deep. Hm…

Can you elaborate more on what you mean in that last paragraph? A part of me can feel, not see, what you mean, but Im not sure. I want to be with a man who will just understand me and love me? Who will give me that sense of validation I’m so desperately seeking? Who will be able to take control of the situation?