i think its better to write here Anita.

so i gave chance to that abusive and disrespectfull relationship because

1) i loved him a lot

2) he manipulated me in a great way

3) i dint know he has Antisocial pesonality Disorder .yes he is a Sociopath . because

he has no Empathy for anyone even  not for me somtime

he has no guilt when he hurt sombody even me .

he doesnt understand if he is doing wrong and i m feeling or anybody is being hurt.

he keeps blaming me  for his every single action .take no responsiblity.

he threatens ,blackmail ,disrespect and get aggressive if u want to correct him .

he doesnt understand emotions ,love .

he feel no guilt,regret or remorse.

he has too much ego and last but not least

he is never WRONG ..

so i want to start from here

i caught him lying,hiding,making stories and betraying my trust  inspite of admiting he become aggressive and start to manipulating and justifying his lies ,hiding things and betraying my trust . who does that ?  i guess no one .he has disrespected me manytime before .

we were having discussion about it as if our relationship was falling apart because of his continious lying etc.he wasnt sorry,had no guilt and was confident that  he is right and was right what he did.

i was broken seriously ,i was weeping ,crying sobbing for 2-3 hours while chatting with him until my eyelids got swollen .but he was okey with that he had no pity on me or no regret of hurting me  or my feelings . when i say him i m confused because of his action and everything he show as if its no BIG deal .its no big deal if he broke my trust ,no big deal if he hurts me .

really ??was that no BIG DEAL.at some point i got confuse and asking myself may bethats okey and he is right i am making it issue and just hurting my self .he has no fault .then i feel i am being MANIPULAT.

i told him i cant trust him and he was okey with that .he start to accuse me that i am just creating drama to get rid of him ..if i wanted to get rid of him why would i be crying ,or making him realize his actions are killing me ,WHY? .it doesnt make any sense .

we were having never ending discussion from last 3-4 days because this time i was done with his actions that he dees not admit his mistake (which i thought that he has big EGO but was wrong because he is a sociopath )and i told my self i cant continiou this relationship .i denied to be Manipulated this time  for me it was break up but for him its no big deal he kept texting me as if nothing happen everything is normal .and i was texting him back because i love this person .

as 3 days passed no solution came out .i was firm that i wont accept manipulation and blackmailing  .he start to be aggressive and told me to return his things as last time he did.but not only his things but also every single money he ever spent on me .he was taunting me that “why  i dint have any trust issue while having his facilities or favours ,doing shopping, taking money fom him than how suddenly i have problem with him

? he is right we had 7 months relationship we never had problem but when i saw his chats and caught him in betraying or lying i have now trust issue .i cant trust him  and i dont want to because he never take responsibility .

but for him everything is about money .the only reaction of him was  when  i said” i cant trust him or wanna break up”  was him asking about his things not for a single time he was ashamed of his any mistake or telling me that he loves me .

he askd me to give him his costs . as i wasnt working my financial situation is too bad i borrowed money this month for rent and he was demanding 2400euro . including the cost of the  Mac laptop which he bought for me.i agreed at first and said him give me time i ll pay ur all money .but how ?i dont have amy money what should i do .i am a student who is allowed to work part time .and currently i need money for my living .i m financially broke this month .

but later i realized during university i dint work because i dint have time and i wanted to study better but during this time i was with him 24/7 spending time,massaging his feet when he was being sick or going to hospital etc.if i worked those time inspite of being with him  i wouldn be having now financial trouble too  nor his favours which he did .

if he is asking me for his every single rupee and matrialistic than why shouldnt ask money for my time which i investing on him ,giving him Services ,massaging,taking care of him ,bathing him ,making him feel comfortable,nursing him etc.

i denied to pay him and he start calling me prostitute and that  said me “now u  will also ask the fee of having sex with him of last 7 months ” and start to manipulate me and making me emotional .but i said i ll take every single second charges  which i spend with you in nursing and taking care of u .because he said to return him every singe thing which includes Salt,sugar,Milk etc  in the house.but it was his duty to buy extra things like kitchen ,washroom stuff and i was to pay rent other charges.when i denied and asked him to pay me for my services he start to call me prostitute and said me that he ll bring customer for S*x.

i blocked him because he was thretening and blackmaling me showing me my these conversation ,my pics with him  that he ll send it to my family and publish  all in my city .he ll destroy me beause now i m his enemy he said .

when  i blocked him he texted my elder sis and told her every single thing and told her that she (me) isnt returing his money.

and my contacted me i was shocked .