Hi

here I am , again.

Tommorow, my dad is going to die, he asked  for euthanasia, and got it, because his disease in incurable and he is in a lot of pain.( in my country, this is legal)

It will be very strange, leaving my home an knowing that I am going to see him for the last time. He asked if I could be there , and of course I will.

My sister will also be there, but she isn’t talking to me, because  I took legal action to get my money back, and is very mad about that.

My mother is in the hospital due to complications of her cancer treament, and we dont know if she will make it.

Why is this all happening to me at the same time??? I feel all alone and no one knows what I am going through. I feel so jealous of people who have a family, or husband , or boyfriend who they can depend on ,

I have a close friend, but  it is not the same as a lifepartner.

I just hope that I can be happy again, one day