Hi, lilroo!

I also have a spiritual path. I have never had a sex life, though I am facing problems (with desire and lustful thoughts) that are comparable to yours.

You should look for teachings in your spiritual path that are about dealing with sexual desire and pleasure. Look for it in books, YouTube videos, see if you can find some public talk or meet a teacher to talk to. You could also find a teacher to e-mail to. (Of course this applies only if your path has dedicated teachers.)

The Tibetan people make certain practices in the morning before having breakfast. This is because Tibetans eat meat in the morning and they consider that eating meat brings them bad Karma. They strive to be “Karmically pure” during the practice. Perhaps you could think and act in similar ways? Heh.

Your boyfriend tells you that he can have sex at 8 am. Could you make it so that you have sex before or after your spiritual practice?

lilroo, your situation is salvageable and you can find a solution.