Dear serife,

Im agree with mandelbrot’s replies. Soon or later, you will be faced with another fear of rejection. If you do not act on this, based on my experience, the same fear will come over again until you overcome it. Im not saying that you need to talk to him directly. But im saying that you really need to figure out what you wanted, its either go or leave.

And if you have the decision, make sure you get the clear picture of your desires. List out the move that you need to make, to finally increase gradually to reach your goals. Silly move are fine–nothing is perfect. Slow move also fine, at least you will be closer to him.

If i were you, and truly wanted something, ill find my way to seek it. Both “go or leave”, they have the risks and also have their own way of “fear”that you, soon or later, will be faced with.

However, the decision is up to you. Aren’t you curious to feel what you’ve wanted this whole time?

regards,

a boy.