Dear Girija:

Often the walks are refreshing. The woods are interesting. When a tree gets injured and stops growing straight up, it still grows sideways. In a similar way, when we are emotionally injured (ex., scared at an early age and on by a… scary mother), we can’t grow the same as we would have if we had a sensible, calming mother. But we can grow sideways-

– meaning, I am thinking, you, Girija, cannot grow within the home you are in, having your mother in your life every day and night, but you can grow.. sideways, someplace else away from her.

The emotional voice you mentioned, it will continue to speak to you. It will take time and work- after you move out, not only before- to weaken that voice, to make the rational voice dominant in your brain. Practice now, talk sense to yourself whenever you hear the emotional voice. Or take a walk  yourself to relieve the anxiety and talk sense to yourself during the walk.

anita