Dear Lia:

One more thing, you wrote: “I’ve seen quite a lot of psychologists when I was a teenager, and none of them has never pointed out that I had a toxic mother… how could they miss that fact?”- they too had toxic mothers, toxic enough, so like you, they blame themselves, like you, they are tortured by guilt and empathize with their mothers. And so, they can’t help you in ways they haven’t helped themselves yet.

Having abusive mothers is very common. Many people are attracted to becoming therapists because of their own difficult childhoods and issues they did not resolve yet.

And another thing, your siblings argued with your mother, fought against her, unlike you, but “they’re all as messed up as me”, you wrote. This means that they lost their fight, doesn’t it?

anita