Yes you are Anita! You are right!

I could have listened to you months ago when you said to detach from family. Maybe I wouldn’t be a hot mess right now. But I accept and forgive my choices with love or at least I am trying!

I honestly feel like singing a lease in Chicago was wrong though. Not sure if it is ptsd or anxiety but I think Florida would have been a better bet from the beginning. I have entered the blender too much. I need time away from the blender of family. I need peace. Plus winter will come and be sad again. I wonder if I could reconsider my lease and just make the drive to Florida and sign one there?? What are your thoughts.

i truly don’t want to make another impulsive decision but also don’t want to continue with family. Even talking to my grandma again yesterday was a hassle!