I think thats a big part of what’s grating on me at the moment. She’s now able to go back to ‘normal’, be herself and be with other random people she’s hooking up with. But they haven’t done the work I had to.

I still have this need for her and she’s quite easily left and started a new life like it was nothing. And I feel like I have a lot more to do to get to a ‘normal’ stage. Feel inadequate in comparison, I still feel like I have a duty to the relationship or something stupid and she’s off having all the fun and being happy that she didn’t have with me.