Dear blkhwkdwn1:

“What is this? a broken heart?”- I think it is, a broken heart. You felt love for her for a long, long time. The thought of having no contact with her anymore, for good, is depressing you terribly. This is why every time you  did cut contact with her, you renewed that contact.

Many songs were written and sung about broken hearts. Here is one: “Can’t live without your love and affection”, tell me what parts of it speak to you most, will you?

“Here she comes, mm, just like an angel.
Seems like forever that she’s been on my mind.
Nothing has changed, she thinks I’m a waste of her time.
There she goes.
No, she don’t know what she’s missing.
Can’t she see I’ll never give up the fight.
I’ll do all I can.
She understands my desire.
I’ve been on the outside looking in.
Let me into your heart.
Oh. There’s nothing on earth that should keep us apart.
Baby, I can’t live without your love and affection.
I can’t face another night on my own.
I’d give up my pride to save me from being alone,
’cause I can’t live without your love.
Oo your love.
So I wait, mm, here for an answer.
Wonder if tomorrow will be like this today.
I keep holding on, can’t go on living this way, baby.
I’ve been on the outside looking in.”

anita