Dear Anita, thank you for researching regarding my 2 problems which is my height and eating problems.

I’m really sure that this eating problem is a factor for my short height, as i believe i actually can reach 5’7 but i did not.
My eating problem i think its not of difficulty swallowing/dysphagia its more of afraid of swallowing/phagophobia i think, because when i was a child i was babysit by a maid and i always refuses to eat but she forces me which results in me vomiting and lead to trauma till today. After that incident i have difficulty eating, i always vomits in eating any food. I only eat porridge when i was a kid. Then at 7 years old someone asks me to try eating a rice with only a small spoon, when i try it im still afraid of swallowing then i try using a water to flush it in and it works. Since till now i always use water to flush the food into my throat, but it will lead me to frequently going to the toilet due to drinking a lot. I’ve done it for 13 years. And i also eat using my front teeth which results in a weird mouth shape will chewing and some of my friends make fun of it. Idk if this phobia can also destroy my hopes in finding a wife, as idk if girls wanna accept me. And also i have a short height. Im so done in getting a wife.

Some of my friends said to me that you dont need to worry as ur parents have money and eventually you’ll get someone to like you. Yes its true my parents have money, our family can be considered “rich” but i still dont believe his words that i can get girls this way.
In june, i’ll graduate and i’ll work at my parents company in which i’ll start at the bottom as an employee. In my parents company all the girls are older than me and im leaving uni so i wont meet anymore girls, im really frustrated as im not good at getting to know girls if i dont meet her daily. I’m also frustrated that just now i walk without any tall sandals/shoes to buy something and i really feel like a dwarf, its like everybody is taller than me even the girls.

And i wanna reply my previous thread regarding to the girl that i’ll meet in the airport, i just found out that she’s taller than me. Lol i really dont know what to do now. It’s like im not given any hope