Dear Anita, i’m really sorry that u are forced fed to which results in difficulty breathing every morning. Both of us didnt intent this to happen but it did and i still believe that this unfair treatment of something which is not our mistake and lead to something negative like my height.

And you said that “a gradual relearning of chewing with other than front teeth, and swallowing small pieces at a time with less water“ is a method that i can improve on, and my parents also told me that i should do that, but now whenever i try to chew with my back teeth i feel pain as i never use it and it always gets dirty for being unused which requires me to wash my teeth at dentist every 6 months and they even thought that my back teeth is dirty due to smoking which is not.

And yeah i only can enjoy flavorful drinks completely, i still can enjoy foods tho its just that i need to flush it into the throat with water so basically i dont know how to enjoy food like normal humans do.

I also get your point that your friend with a height of 5’3 still get married with someone. But over the few years i still cant find girls shorter than me that im interested in, the faces that i find attractive is mostly taller than me.

Im really thankful that you understand my food trauma as i hardly tell anyone about this. This trauma causes me to not have many much appetite on eating, that’s why i dont have many nutrients in me. Most of my friends just know that i eat very slow, they even tell me that if i find a girl i need to find a girl which is also slow at eating to be able to catch my eating pace. They just dont know that i have this swallowing trauma and it really hurts, and also that word lead me into realizing that this causes my short height.