Thank you Anita for your response 🙂

My parents didn’t have a great marriage and still don’t.  They argued all the time and are miserable with each other. They pretty much hate each other. Thats what I grew up with and truly thought was normal. I thought every marriage ends like this.

So perhaps thats why I run away. I get deathly scared of relationship commitment. It’s not in the sense that I want to sleep around, but rather I fear I start to lose my freedom, independence and individuality. I wish I wasn’t like this.

But I couldn’t tell if this was a problem within me and he was the right person – or that perhaps he was just simply the wrong person. So I had to end it. Everyone around me said it was the right decision, that we weren’t suited, but I still miss him and it aches to already see him move on. My heart wants to get back with him but my head says no as do my friends.

The anxiety is indeed exhausting, as it the constant analysing thats going on in my head.