The thing is, when I first realized I was starting to feel nothing, it was different from before. When I’ve been disappointed or angry before, communication was able to calm me down and eventually, I was calm, level, and happy again. But this emptiness was something like never before and I was confused. Yes, I did panic when I noticed this shift, but I don’t think I really started panicking until 4/5 days later when I realized my feelings weren’t going back to normal like they used to. There was also no fight triggering the feeling, I was actually coming back from a really fun night out with friends when I noticed.

I also think “protecting yourself from anticipated (more) hurt by losing your feelings for him” was something I considered before because I was going through some emotional pain caused by the relationship (not him). But then it makes me wonder, ‘why couldn’t this have happened to me when we broke up back in the fall then?’ I was going through so much emotional pain, depression, and anger back then, yet I never lost feelings or had an emptiness during that rough month. So, why now? That’s why I dismissed that theory.

P.S. This analogy –>”But you got alarmed and panicked, as if .. the sky is falling down because you cannot see the sun.” Definitely, I freaked out, it was so fast and out of nowhere.