Hi Lori,

I really appreciate so much your thoughts and encouragements regarding my experience. I was actually very happy that someone replied because i was so depressed when i wrote that and needed to hear something from someone. I followed your suggestion and looked up meditation videos on youtube about letting go and resentment. I did one and tears just started coming out because i felt i was letting go. But i guess i have a weak mind since before taking a shower i started crying again thinking of how early in the relationship he called me stupid and how he didnt like me and how i should have the self respect to just say to him that i would be more stupid if i continue to be with such an unhappy person like himself…i even kneeled and prayed to god…pouring my heart out and asking him to please make me understand that none of that was my fault.

I will continue with the meditation and will try to do it every day..i actually read those post you suggested and see how they can help me..i just need to be strong.