Thank you for the reply.

I completely accept, and even support her being with her husband, if it is what makes her happy. Coming from a divorced household, I know it will be better for the kids if they are able to be happy together. I just hate that it cost so much. That is what I’m having the hardest time with. The entire time we were together, she kept telling me that no matter what, she couldn’t stand not having me in her life in some way. We were too important to each other. And idk how many times she said that if she was ever given the ultimatum between choosing me in her life, that she would never be able to not choose that. I saw it coming. I hate to say it, but im pretty good at reading people and situations. But accepting that, accepting that I’ve lost my best friend. Letting go. That is what I’m having the hard time doing. I can’t get her off my mind. At all. I try all the distraction techniques I can. But my mind always goes back to her. And what I lost. That is what the alcohol is mainly for. Just slowing down my thoughts, so they aren’t rushing as much.

And thank you Anita, I’ll check that site out.