Dear Miyoid:

“he started to look into my stuff sometimes… he secretly got into my hard disk”- he shouldn’t invade your privacy, it’s wrong for him to do that to you.

“he started to live with me and we stayed together during this pandemic and we still are… I don’t want to end this in any way. Ending this relationship will harm both of us.. I don’t know what to do”-

– he has to promise you to never again invade your privacy. He has to promise you to never put you in the position again where he considers suicide while living with you. These two things are wrong for him to do, It’s not fair to you.

Because you intend to continue living with him- talk to him, tell him that the two of you should be a team, working together for the benefit of  both of you- make it a win-win relationship, not a lose- lose. The two of you suffer from depression, both needing help, so help each other.

One more thing: he shouldn’t apply any sexual pressure on you. If you don’t feel like it, he should respect that. The two of you can cuddle, or hug or just sit together holding hands, that’s good enough.

Please let me know if this is helpful. I will be back to the computer in about 11 hours from now.

anita