Hi Anita,

I hope you had a nice holiday.

My Thanksgiving Day started out very well.  I was happy to see family, my mother, my son…those I haven’t seen in awhile.  My kids and I seemed to not stray too far from each other; knowing that the three of us aren’t together that often and wanting to stay close.  Thankfully, no one mentioned the “bf” because my family knows what’s going on.  And, it wasn’t important for them on that day.  After all, he was welcomed into the family but was not family.

When it was getting close to time to leave, there was talk about my great niece, who is 2, getting a new bed because my my nephew and his wife are expecting child #3 in January.  Great niece is getting a queen bed just like a little queen.  Then my niece was talking about her king size bed and how there’s so much room that when her fiance moves while sleeping on one side, she doesn’t feel him move.  She was talking about how great that was.  This was the only time I kind of  felt a lump in my throat.  My “bf” and I at his house slept in a twin bed with plenty of room.  We always wanted to be next to each other, holding each other.  At my house I have a king size bed and we were always in one small spot in that bed..way too much room.

When my kids and I said our good-byes to the family, we got into the car and I couldn’t hold back the lump in my throat.  I started to cry; told them I just need a moment.  They understood.  Then, I wiped my tears and we drove home.

I heard from “bf” yesterday.  He asked if my mother wondered why he wasn’t there.  I told him my mother has been aware of the situation for awhile so there was no question asked.  I guess he doesn’t realize my entire family knows that we aren’t together.  Why he was wondering what my mother’s reaction was, I don’t know.  I was talking with my mom last night and told her he had asked that question.  She said “my answer would be ‘grow up'”.  She made me chuckle.

Now onto the next holiday, which again will be a challenge.   But I do get to see my son again in a few weeks.  He mentioned he was coming home one weekend to get some work done for a company he’s worked for before.

Katie