I have always been tough on myself. But now something similar happened. I tried the mountain job but I just cant keep going. I chose the money; because I really wanted the house. But I was offered another job and actually worked there for a couple of days on my days off. So this past week someone at the mountain was possibly exposed so we were low on staff. I was going to quit and take the new job. They told me if I didnt go, that my contract would end. Then I told them that perhaps I was feeling symptoms. I think they took it as I couldnt work, so they ended my contract even though I really this as a good job. ( 3 days 36 hrs 4 hrs free and 4 days off). Due to me trying to help out the mountain job, I lost the new one. I just asked, I was going to quit this one in the mountain (80+ hr weeks , 6 days a week) Now i keep thinking I have to quit cuz my mental health is suffering. Im also dissapointed because I have good opportunities but I keep not being able to hold onto them. And lastly, the dreams of getting a cheap house that will be cheap because the housing prices will most likely go down is fading cuz i cant take it anymore. Too stressful, Isolation, far from home. And even when I try to move on, I imagine having 4 days off, a social life, free time and when the pandemic clears up, time to travel easily to anywhere. I also saw this as a career change that I kind of wanted.. in the chemical field and not in construction. The last job that rescinded contract was also in the chemical field. Why cannot grasp what I want. The chemical one was 18 an hour while the mountain construction one was 26 an hour and 39 for the hours after 40 hrs. I feel sad dissapointed and upset. I want to quit. I feel like ill be in a better state of mind and I dont want to lose my happiness. In the end, i dont want to be a salty grown up who hates their life :/