Thank you Peter.

Indeed. I have learned a lot about myself immensely. I think this is the first relationship where I can truly pinpoint what I want. Albeit I struggle with wondering if I am too needy. Yet to your point, I want to make sure that I understand what you are conveying. My experience in relationships should always be where I am evolving and growing? The experience should be an ebb and flow? Where there is conflict and pushback concerning love whether it be from me or the other person are key signals that should alert me? Do I understand that correctly?
As of late my heart has been so full, so heavy. The triggers, the anxiety… it’s like my heart keeps propelling me to have my needs fulfilled.  I don’t want to push him away by being too needy. Yet, I’m also quite overwhelmed in determining if what I am asking is fair and just. I keep fighting to get my point across. Yet to my chagrin , I don’t think he is listening. Or to Anita’s point he isn’t overly concerned just comfortable.