Hi Laia … I read your post and my heart went out to you. It must be very hard indeed to love someone who is so “unavailable” – both physically and (reading between the lines) emotionally too. I haven’t been in your situation as such so really I’m just writing to say you’re not alone and I care about you. I can totally understand why you feel you are going crazy. If I were to give you any advice at all it would be to “wait and see”. Take one day at a time and don’t rush into anything. If it’s meant to be, it will be. Look after yourself and be kind to yourself. Try to find a quiet place inside yourself and the right path will become clear. Love, Vanessa x