Dear Boris,

I hear you and understand your frustration. How about you try dancing? Move your body a little, down from the neck too? There’s actually a movement practice, called the 5 Rhythms, which is all about moving your body in order to awaken and process your emotions. I am sure there are many other types of movement practices, but in this one you move free style, without prescribed steps. You dance to get to know yourself and your emotions, not to impress anybody. I used to do it for a while, it was very fun and liberating. Anyway, you might benefit from something like that.