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I said that because I know how ruthless “men” can be. I’ve witnessed some dire behaviour from my old mates.
A man when he contacts you can out of boredom, to feed his ego. So you need to have your wits about you and not get sucked in and blinded by your lingering feelings should he make contact.
This man hasn’t sincerely apologised to you or taken accountability so I wouldn’t trust him so readily.
Did he push away because he had counted on sex and it didn’t happen so he lost interest?
That is a possibility considering you mentioned he said he did not want to marry again. So he ruled out commitment early on. (I’m assuming you wanted that level of commitment at least one day?) That means he obviously wanted a casual affair. Men lose interest quickly if no sex is offered.
If he was decent, back then he may have realised you were marriage material (not necessarily for him but generally especially if you are monogamous) so he backed off and didn’t want to treat you as casual fling out of respect or knew you wouldn’t give up the goods. Like I said no one but he knows.
You’re not over him that’s clear as day. Your process is your own but i hope you stop analysing sooner rather than later. One day you’ll look back and kick yourself for wasting 5 years of keeping interest alive in this man.
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