Hi Sammy, glad you had a nice mother’s day, my mother was very happy with bouquet of flowers she received from myself!

Today is the best I’ve felt in ages, been very energetic and upbeat with everyone at the place I work and I’m trying to focus on the goals and things I want to do this year that I will enjoy, granted I know this is an upswing on the roller coaster of emotions but it sure does feel good and a relief to get away from those negative and sad emotions, I just wish this would last for ever! I think I am slowly coming to terms that it is really over now and that she has really moved on for good this time which is for the best for both of us.

In terms of moving on to try replace the void so soon, don’t worry I’m not actively pursuing this and being desperate because I know need to heal first and also it’s not something I want to chase, I’ve tried dating apps and they just do not work for me anyway, I would definitely rather meet someone in person in a unscripted scenario, that was what felt really good when I first met her, it came out of nowhere!

Again you are actually on the money with how I’ve been, my previous relationship was too comfortable and I took her for granted, a case of I didn’t know what I had until I lost it and she really was a nice attractive girl who if met at this point in my life I would of appreciated a lot more so yeah I was definitely approaching this most recent relationship to make amends for my previous one.

One thing that is annoying is she likes to like my mother’s and sisters statuses on fb, she really liked my mum and they was still messaging before Christmas on a friends basis which I wasn’t happy about but let it go because I didn’t want to seem petty and interfere, however since she broke a promise to my mum to leave me alone she has since said she doesn’t really want to communicate with her like that anymore and kept any response short just to be amicable, I suppose this is something I will have to live with for the moment but will undoubtedly fizzle out.

I know what your about time for starting a family etc., it’s not something I constantly fret about, I think just with social media and people who are close to you experiencing these moments, I personally get lost in the pursuit of happiness in my mind and leaves me feeling empty and abnormal, I know that’s not really the important issue at the moment, it’s healing from a big loss that has affected my life that takes priority, I am starting to truly believe this can all be learning curves to a better path so I won’t stop believing, I know everyday is going to be up and down for a while and that’s why I appreciate this thread and you fine people for listening and responding, for me personally it really means a lot to have this support.