Dear anita,

yes, I knew that your words were meant positive. I did not think you were criticizing me. It was just that I felt I didn’t deserve that praise. Instead, I thought that most days I did not stick to my goals and wasn’t really accountable. Then I thought about what I actually accomplished: getting myself out of that bad mood.

What s true is that I see myself in a very negative light and there are people that see me in a more positive light. Often, when people know me better, some like me and a lot accept me and the ones that dislike me are not for me… But my negative thinking about myself gets triggered very easily and I still have to work on it.

About the cougars: good to know that they usually don’t attack humans. I hope your walks will be safe and relaxing for you!

Today at work everything was o.K. Some interactions were awkward, but I did my best in trying to help people. Now I feel very tired and will read for a bit.

It is the beginning of spring tomorrow! My plan is to celebrate it in some way! Other than that I have to clean our flat and work on my projects.

Until tomorrow!