Morning Sammy, a year on and its brilliant to see the progress and able to share your journey to help others and now your at the point where you can look at the experience as a positive point in your life where it took you in a better direction, these situations can make you or break you and i definitely would like to look back and be glad it happened for my own personal growth, I actually opened a a lifetime ISA the other day and plan to contribute to that to help with purchasing a property in the future.

Thank you for acknowledging my progress, maybe it was wrong to let her back in to set back the healing but the way I look at it I blamed myself for how I was at the time and could not get past that in my mind, after being in contact and getting strung along again, I’m in a better frame of mind to let go this time so everything happens for a reason i suppose and also has prompted me to find this thread and discuss to analyse everything better.

Forward thinking for future relationships I would never be like that because that’s not the person I am, I’m honest and upfront, I will learn however from this past experience to be very wary of developing feelings if there not going to reciprocated, although in my defence she was way more into me than I was her at first and without me even knowing the balance shifted, of course I was naive from being on my own for a long time and got a taste of feeling that way which hooked me in and from there it got progressively worse, all learning curves anyway so got to think positive, I know I wouldn’t be where I’m at now without going through all of this so there will definitely be a silver lining at some point. The crazy thing with me is I have lots of friends from over the years and reputation for being a decent person and I’ve never tried to transpire that into having a healthy relationship.

Onwards and upwards, hopefully the restrictions will be relaxed on the said dates to give a uplift in general mood and that will also help with moving on, like you said its difficult dealing with breaking up with someone you care about deeply in normal circumstances, to do it whilst in a pandemic with conditions we are not used to is a much more challenging task so you have to recognise the inner strength it takes to get through a distressing ordeal within that.