Dear IkO9:

About getting extremely drunk at a house party and passing out at the party- if there is a possibility that you will drink that much at any party where alcohol is served, don’t attend that party.

Regarding your guilt feelings about having been kissed and kissing back when drunk at the party six months ago, feeling guilt when you read my description of you as good and honest- I didn’t change my mind about you because you got drunk and/ or because you were kissed and kissed back.

If you are currently thinking or overthinking about this guy. This is what you posted two years (April 26 2019) about overthinking about the same guy: “I don’t like the way I am spending too much time thinking about his moves and his behavior. I have my own work and studies to look after but then I am getting bothered.. I tend to not think when I am around other people but the second I am free, well  it is deep level overthinking.. I have decided to put in my thoughts in a notepad letter whenever I am too strained”-

– you can put your thoughts into a notepad again. If you have the notepad from 2019, you can read your thoughts of two years ago.

Isn’t it amazing how much time you invested in thinking about him when practically, you received no return on your investment… all those thoughts and all that time resulted in limbo and a standstill- nothing significant happened outside of your thinking, no practical improvement of your life. Best, if you are able, to stop thinking about him, it is a waste of your time and mental/ emotional resources.

anita