Dear llyana:

Yesterday, your son said that life sucks and that he wished he was never born. Within two days, a downpour of the following negative thoughts flooded your brain: (1) that you are not providing him with a loving home, (2) that you don’t know how, (3) that maybe your cognition is not improving after all, (3) that you are a terrible mother, wife, sister, and person, (4) that you ruined yourself, being irreparably broken and completely impotent, (5) that it is all your fault, that your son and husband would be better of if you were gone.

There is anxiety and distress connected to each one of these thoughts. all together, it’s a downpour of anxiety and distress, and you’ve been drowning in it, unable to think rationally. Somehow, you need to come up from under and take in the fresh, clean air of spring, let the air calm you, quiet down your distress and suffering. It is then that you will be able to think rationally and to have the patience to tackle one task at a time.

anita