Dear anita,

your weekend sounds good. It is always so nice to see the ocean. Did you go for a swim?

I hope that soon life will become more normal and that we will have enough good vaccines for all people around the world so that we can all be safe again!

My day at work was a little stressful, but overall I did a good job I think. In the future however I would like to make a few changes. or example, sometimes when I talk someone or am not finished helping a client, somebody else starts talking to me. Next time, I would like to tell these people to wait a moment please.

Today I also helped a client by sending them digital documents. I told them that I will send it and that they don’t have to wait. After they were gone I (almost) immediately sent it, it couldn’t have been more than five minutes or so. They came back to complain that it didn’t work and I looked at my computer, but everything was fine. I told them so, but they insisted I come with them to see that it didn’t work. Of course, everything was fine. Now I am thinking, next time, when I know that I have done everything correctly, I can also tell a client no and to wait or look again. Or I don’t know, of course I want to help people! But it stressed me a bit and I had also other tasks waiting…

I am thinking that I do not want to do this job forever, even though there are also a lot of positive things. My co-workers are friendly and I like them and I feel accepted and sometimes even appreciated there. On the plus side of it being a lot of work, it never gets boring. Also, I learned a lot there and it has helped me to improve my social skills. Now I am feeling more confident and like I can do a decent job. And the pay is enough to cover my bills, even though it is only part time.

But sometimes I also think that it is not completely fitting for me to have a job with lots of social interaction (but during the last days I felt a bit more competent and like I handled things o.K.) And I also don’t like to sit in an office all day.

After work, I went for a long walk. My thoughts were not so positive sadly, thinking about work and also feeling upset because people like to mow everything down (this is a constant source of upset for me), even the grass next to the sidewalk or the stream. But oh well, I am feeling a bit better now after writing everything down. Sorry for the rant!

During my walk I went to the lake and it was beautiful. Maybe I should take a swim there, but today everything has cooled down and it was raining. The cooler temperatures feel good and will help me to focus more.

Tomorrow I have some small tasks on my list, but it would still be nice to go out into nature for a bit. And I wanted to finally start a new collage. And clean again.

Hope your Monday is going well! Take care!