Dear Damien:

As I read: “I remember she loved me very much“, my pessimism decreased and my optimism increased. I am guessing this is how it is for you, optimism goes up with certain thoughts, down with other thoughts. And when you see her in-person, I imagine the same thing will happen: she says one thing and will your optimism is up; she says another thing, and your optimism is down.

Same thing in regard to her facial/ physical expressions: she looks at you with a genuine smile on her face, and your optimism goes up; she looks away from you with a frown on her face, and your optimism goes down.

You will have to adapt a very patient and somewhat cautious attitude when you see her, being prepared to those ups and downs, and not get carried away too far up or down, keeping your optimism balanced.

Be prepared for those ups and downs, understanding that a smile does not mean that the relationship is resumed and is solid, and that a frown does not mean the relationship is doomed to not resume.

anita