Thank you Matt,
Now I understand a bit better what you were trying to say. And I agree with you, it does seem like my heart wants something but the circumstances outside seem make it impossible so it makes me feel lost. I see what you’re saying, so it means that it’s not about what universe wants, because what is my real desire IS what the universe wants, so I think you are right, maybe my doubt about NYC or anything for that matter has made things to be blocked. But as far as the signs go; you mentioned the signs are confusing because I am conflicted, but that is not the case; the signs ALL of them are saying NYC. I tried to ignore it at first to be honest. And I agree that I am lost, but the fact that I saw the signs was after I started asking myself and meditated and etc. to get a bit of direction, and after that these signs appeared. I agree that I have to let go, I just don’t know how since I have to find a job right now, and to be honest I really don’t want to!! I really don’t want to do another job that I hate, and I know it’s simple to others, my brother says, well when you have to, you have to. This word has never had a meaning for me. I do’t believe I HAVE to do anything. I want to do what I love to do, and I think it’s time for it.
You’re metaphors are nice, but to be honest it’s confusing. I understand better when you are being more realistic though 🙂
So, if i want to only look at what my heart wants, I want to do what I love to do and I want to live in NYC someday, but right now I REALLy don’t know what to do about it, because seems like I can not do anything about it that’s the problem. I have been trying to let go and do what you’re suggesting, but seems like I really don’t feel like doing anything, I mean I feel like no matter what I do nothing is happening, so I have lost power. I think I am emotionally tired of trying, even though I know what I want, I feel helpless in making it happen because it seems out of my hand, and I am just trying to do what I love to do which is read 247 and write, and wait for some kind of a miracle to make things happen.
Thanks again
Danubelle