Dear Andrew:

Regarding you watching porn: “I’ve watched porn although I’ve been trying to cut it down and give it up because I always felt bad for watching it. Back to the story I went on to watch it and afterwards I felt really bad, ashamed, disgusted, guilty and terrible“-

– reads to me that for you to resolve your always-feeling-bad and terrible, your shame, disgust and guilt in regard to watching porn, it will be way easier for you to stop watching porn altogether than it would be to continue to watch it while trying hard to not feel badly about it. I would vote therefore on you giving up the practice.

Regarding you having been emotionally abused by your sister: how long has this been going on, if I may ask: at what age were you when she started abusing you, and in what forms has she been abusing you?

anita