actually I’m from the people who fail miserably and don’t give up at all …. if I were your place I will just think for along time what I want to do what is the advantage and disadvantage of all the available choices then stick to my decision. maybe you can work 2 jobs at the same time or work under someone else and working in the things that you want to achieve . or maybe doing your best in the work and spend the rest of the day doing your passion and the things that you love because the work only take 8 hours of the day there is still 16 hours for yourself you don’t need to feel you are being a prisoner and there is no turn back … hope you will find your place as soon as possible