Dear anita

Thank you for your eye opening analysis. It is true that my inner child is still feeling those lonely and suffocating feelings even if I can see as an adult that my parents are not gods. But my inner child is still hurt from their behaviour to walk away when I needed them the most especially now when I stopped my study and feeling the same like my inner child that I want to be comforted during those hard times. It is good that I am brave enough to want to break through this vicious circle to be needy to cling on somebody to give me the hold I am craving for.

I feel understood from you when you said that I am afraid to jump high, because I don’t trust my ability to jump high and survive. I am very anxious that I won’t have a safety net to catch me if I fall. That’s the reason why I hesitate and overthink to try new things or to meet new people. I know how that hurtful feeling to be outcasted feels like.

Thank you for sharing your own experience with your little sister. Probably my little sister struggles with other issues too. I know that being envious won’t help me at all.

Sesha