Dear HoneyBlossom,

Thank you for taking time to read about my story.

I have been on my own for over 2 years now, and I feel much more emotionally stable than I ever did in relationships with men.  I haven’t gone out of my way to meet anyone, let alone a type of selection process.  I just have a very small number of close to friends, and I really like where I live.  I’m pretty much a home body and I’m in a nice part of the world. Nice to hear about all this and I’m so happy for you. This is exactly what I’ve been over the last 5 years or so. I just feel peaceful about being alone and just have to talk to only very few people. But thoughts come up every now and then about the abuse. Recently it has been troubling me a lot that it gives me sleepless nights and I tend to oversleep the next morning. I get thoughts of the injustice I faced, the shame I faced and being helpless and not doing anything about it.

Yes, Indian dating and marriage scene is very different and sometimes its hard for someone who has not seen this to understand where I am coming from. My parents did try to arrange a marriage for me, but somehow (thank God!) it did not work out. I was not ready and I’m not sure if I will be anytime soon unless I get some peace about this incident. It still haunts me.

Regards,

Shve