Thinking of your response again, it’s wild for me to hear an outside perspective that there was potentially always darkness in the family. Because I really can understand why someone would think that. But genuinely, my parents complete beings of joy and love. They are not perfect but there isn’t a single particle of darkness between them. If it helps at all, I have actually been in psychotherapy with them and the therapist never sensed anything but love and concern from them. I just get more and more confused as to how my brother came to be like this.