dear Anita

A medical doctor: I always had the outmost respect for the profession! I failed entrance exams to a medical school and I am glad that I did because my chronic severe inattention to details …thank you very much , i cant really comment on that. i wasnt really focused either but i had too , after a while i got more organized and focused , but it s a very hard thing to do , all the sleepless nights , specially during covid . i lost my will to live for a while and i start to take antidepressants . i like it but i know a lot of people who regret studying medicine so i hope your happy with the job you have right now thats all that matters .

 I was afraid that you will not want to speak to me anymore because of the animosity you mentioned. yes i understand it . i think if i didnt know Israeli people while studying maybe i had some doubts talking to you just like if you didnt meet iranians while growing up you would think they are some evil creatures but it`s all bs , dirty politics

yes , i speak french and i forgot alot too . and you understood my phrase right , lol

i always enjoy you accurate analysis , all were unfortunately true thinking of women as subhuman and compartmentalization . he never took the initiation that was the first red flag and he acting nasty and aloof was actually stabilizing his situation as the upper one , when it didnt work he changed somehow but dont you find his behavior heartless ? i think i shouldnt expect such a person to care but in the same time why not ?it wouldnt hurt him to say something regarding my dads death . i dont want seem foolish and naive for expecting it but i believe this people are evil . i didnt say the last part , i actually contacted him one last time and offered to have sex with him , i know that was crazy and i didnt intend to do it just wanted to him to react , remember i just lost my dad , he said no just leave me alone , i feel like in that point because i nagged about his behavior the day he came back , he thought i m not that easy target and/or he believed im in vulnerable position and would do anything to get him back ,the latter one has higher possibility in my opinion . after he said leave me alone , it was what i was waiting for , i said but why how can i find an sleezy d^^^ like you anywhere else?and i said by the way my dad is passed but i know you cant relate because you dont know your dad because your mom was a w^^^^ . do i regret that ?NO . i believe that was low and petty and it was the first time i used that word in someones face . but if someone deserves to be talked to like that , it was him , he is low and shameless , im honestly scared to hear your opinion about what i did ?but in that moment it felt right and after 9 months i dont feel it any different , so maybe im shameless too . lol

. “nice” men will wine-and-dine a woman with the expectation of having sex, but many men, particularly if they are considered attractive and desirable, and if they are busy (like the man you described), and/ or they don’t want to spend the money, he didnt have the money to spent or desire to do so , one he could have anybody he likes without spending any money , in his head . and from what i heard afterwards he was from a very low class family with no money at all , he was driving nice car and wear nice clothes but that was it and when he told me in what part of city he was living i was shocked , it wasnt what i expected from an arrogant and prideful  person like him who is going to be cardiologist at all, i hope i dont sound superficial , i mean some people give some aura you  that it would be a privilege to be with them even breathing same air as them  and it is more disappointing when you realized its all facade , he had no character and no money and he had some serious health issues , im saying its his fault but if a woman had the same issues , that would be very different

This mentality and these kinds of men ruined a lot for me… disgusting, and it is a human-woman tragedy on a global scale. their mentality and the mentality of women who pursue them , so sad

Farnaz