Hi Tee,

Yes, different culture he was brazillian 🙂 It could be, they said he didn’t have a lot of confidence and he asked a collegue (male) if scandinavian women prefer exotic men (i was the only scandi person there) and one day he asked me if I had a boyfriend when I said no he said good.

Well people have actually told me the same. On one occasion my friend asked me why I kept saying no to go for a drink with a guy that I was starting catching feelings for, I didn’t see it as me rejecting him like with X and Y my brain told me that he was only asking to be polite and not actually meant anything with it. When my anxiety kicks in be that because my crush is there or any other situation that makes me anxious I feel like it’s written on my forehead but when I’ve mentioned it to people the always seem surprised, they say I’m really good at hiding it.

The guy from last year did in fact mention it. When I moved in with him (from hostel to hotel) he said that he nearly gave up several times cuz he didn’t feel i gave anything back. Two situations made him keep trying. I told him how much I liked being in his company and that I thought he was so easy to talk to. And our third kiss, the first two was bad on my behalf  I was very stiff cuz It felt very strange to me, but the third I put my arms around him and kissed him (I initiated). He also asked why I never initiated cuddeling it was always him, I wanted to but I was afraid he would push me away seeing me as clingy.

And yeah 6 months is how long I usually keep my cool before I take a step forward, and it is a really long time to be testing someone. It’s kinda like a self fulfilled profecy.